The End...i will no longer take others draging me down..

         Well Thats it. The compney is offally  gone.  Our friend Samuel and his Iresh friends left this afternoon. So sad to see them leave. But it's been a long busy month, and it's nice to get back to "normal life" again. It's been a long hall, it's been good, tiring, frustrating, noisy. But above all, it was a Wonderful Wedding. So very beautiful... i hope mine is half as beautiful. I'm so exausted from the last few weeks, trying to get over the shock of Sarah actually being gone, and married, and knowing that our relationship will never be the same now.

      It was so hard packing up Sarah's room the day after she and Micah left for Ireland, i woke up with no intention of packing up her stuff, then my dad anounced thats what i was going to do... so i basicly cried all day, it felt like i was packing up old memories, so weird, going though her droors, packing up her closet shelves, throwing away old wrapers. It was all apart of her, no matter how stupid or small it was... it kinda tore my heart out. My emotions have been rather raw lately, and i tend to react to everything these days.

         I never know what to say or write about anymore, theres some stuff going on in my personal life that im trying to figure out, and praying about, but it's not public information. I'm at the fact right now, whare im an adult and almost 21, and i want to make my own desitions, trying to not have people get in my face about my life, it's funny, everyone thinks my busniess is their busniess, and they life to give me there edvice about there past expierences because they think i will make the same " mistake" i know people are trying to be " loving" and "Caring" but it's coming across as annoying, and putting there nose whare it doesn't belong.

         Yes, i know, i'm being quite blunt, i've been wanting to speak my mind for some time, but it's my site, so i think i can speak my mind. I'm honestly sick of people trying to emotionaly abuse me with there words, they know im an emotionel person, and they know how to " sweet talk" there way into breaking me down, and making me crack, but im so sick and tired of it. I am holding my head high, and i am fighting for what i want, for what i KNOW is right, i am no longer going to stand by and watch others emotionally abuse me, or my friends, i will stand tall and strong, and fight for what is right. I think it's HIGH TIME I STAND UP FOR MYSELF, INSTED OF LETTING PEOPLE DRAG ME DOWN. AND TIME I STAND UP FOR MY FRIENDS, AND FOR WHAT IS RIGHT.

Sarah's Bridal Photos

The Amazing Photographer, Becka, showing Sarah some pictures..

mixed emotions...

           I don't know how im feeling right now. I'm still in shock that Sarah's actually married, it's all come so fast, and I stand amazed. The wedding week flew by so fast with so much to do, and so much actitys, The wedding day was so very busy, and getting all the last minute details out of the way, last minute makeup fix, last minute hair prep, gluing the straps on our dresses so they stayed up. Then ( latterly) running to the front of the church, ( cuse we were praying for Sarah, before the ceremony. I    

 was the first to walk down the tsile. I was so nervous, i was afraid i was going to trip on my dress, i was shaking, but thank God, i made it without falling on my face, When everyone else made it down, and it was Sarah's turn to walk, The whole bridal party was crying pretty hard, it was such a sweet moment. I feel like i've lost someone dear to me, my heart is so sad, Sarah and I have always been close, but now that shes married, it's a different kind of relationship between us, which is a hard switch for me.

            She's got everything packed up in our room, and it's just sitting in the middle of the floor, everythings so empty, it's so weird to see, cuse, now i know, this is really happening, shes really married, she's really leaving me, she will no longer say " I love you" before she goes to sleep, i will no longer be able to give her a big hug... it's really raw emotions for me right now...

i could use some prayer on this, it's been a long time coming, and now it's come and gone, and it's just as hard now..

Bridal Pictures...

more to come...

Wedding Pictures # 1

     Guess what?! I HAVE WEDDING PICTURES!!!  Ready or not!

My neighbor did my hair, I LOVED it!

At the church, before the cermoney, getting ready.

Emily did Sarah's hair

Emily

The amazing church!

The awesome Groom, and Groomsmen. L/ R Josh, David, Nate, Abram, and Micah

Quite the studly men

    chating on the phone, like always...

our A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. photographer. Becka Murray. ( no relation to the Murray family)

me, ready for the action...

Caleb, Micah's brother

Becka and Noah

Noah, and EJ... being weirdos..

The big moment, of putting sarah's vail on.

   a sweet sister moment

My favorite picture!

getting ready for pictures

theres the first post, i hope you enjoyed them. more to come soon