I don't know how im feeling right now. I'm still in shock that Sarah's actually married, it's all come so fast, and I stand amazed. The wedding week flew by so fast with so much to do, and so much actitys, The wedding day was so very busy, and getting all the last minute details out of the way, last minute makeup fix, last minute hair prep, gluing the straps on our dresses so they stayed up. Then ( latterly) running to the front of the church, ( cuse we were praying for Sarah, before the ceremony. I    

 was the first to walk down the tsile. I was so nervous, i was afraid i was going to trip on my dress, i was shaking, but thank God, i made it without falling on my face, When everyone else made it down, and it was Sarah's turn to walk, The whole bridal party was crying pretty hard, it was such a sweet moment. I feel like i've lost someone dear to me, my heart is so sad, Sarah and I have always been close, but now that shes married, it's a different kind of relationship between us, which is a hard switch for me.

            She's got everything packed up in our room, and it's just sitting in the middle of the floor, everythings so empty, it's so weird to see, cuse, now i know, this is really happening, shes really married, she's really leaving me, she will no longer say " I love you" before she goes to sleep, i will no longer be able to give her a big hug... it's really raw emotions for me right now...

i could use some prayer on this, it's been a long time coming, and now it's come and gone, and it's just as hard now..